Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Coldplay - In My Place





this song calls to me.

i know every line

or i tell myself when the words come

and insides collapse into where i was

when i was a younger someone else

long haired crooning

a smile and a pout

i have but

forget about

Sunday, October 4, 2015

quote of the day. find it. repeat it back until you hear it in your own voice.


My mission in life is not to merely survive, but to thrive, and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.–Maya Angelou

Monday, September 14, 2015

have you heard the word?


The word is "today". Make it your word of the day. It is another opportunity to try again, to practice and to put one foot in front of the other! 

Monday, September 7, 2015



What will you see today when you see today?

I've recently been on the path of YES! If I say yes once, then I make it a practice to practice shwoing up. This has become my new mantra. When worry, time, exhaustion build up, I tell myself- "just show up". When I arrive, I see that I am part of something. I am the action that speaks louder than "should've, could've, would've".

It isn't easy. There are times when I'd like to say I am "too" many things. I am "too" tired, broke, busy so that I may retreat to my comfort zone. ( not that a very lovely yoga/netflix/catchup day isn't necessary if my body needs it)

But outside of that comfort zone, I am able to understand for what am I charging my batteries and what living am I doing in between.


The late Dr. Wayne Dyer said, "If you change the way you look at things, the way you look at things will change".

And it is true. If I keep my eyes open and venture to where the world is wide.

Eat That Frog!

Thursday, August 20, 2015

How Not to Grieve

Though we haven’t experienced the same things at the same time or same place, I’d like to share to see if the words are of comfort to you and in my own self-make space.
friends and family will come to you wondering if you are still grieving.
But grieving is not where you are ( anymore) and not what you are wondering. It’s how to get back to the simple things of waking, breathing. When? Soon. Then you will tell yourself to do the daily things you used to do until something gets caught in you. And you go back to just breathing.
When I had experienced such great loss I would blast the radio and drive on. the best song was the loudest one to cry into and the sound of me was gone.
Later
Let out a sound. For no one in particular. But don’t care if they’re around. It is not for them. And it is not sexy. So please, do not worry if they worry about you when you do this sound for you.  It wasn’t until I shut the radio off, drinking only, the pack of colored water I had floating around in back of my car, that I could shift gears. No, I can not demonstrate that banshee like noise emanating out of my ribs. But that she- cry, that howl is what you need.
the sound soaked up my skin and I was bare to discover- you can’t white knuckle grief. It is not something of strength, the ways of your muscles, how much you can endure.


You may wonder how losing a part of you, the part that was loved and nurtured within the person you knew will never been seen. In religions, our stories are connected. Man brings life to another. We survive by how we are willing to listen.
Like a child with no experience with what he cannot see, loss is where the air exists and what happens to snow once it  is Spring. Longing is object permanence and what has happens to us in between, becomes us as a simple being.


When you lie in bed at night and close your eyes, whisper, “Come along”. Tell yourself, you have a great responsibility now. To carry your love along with you, not just yours but theirs. And soon their stories will become part of you again. They will stop in you, as you are moving, but soon you will listen without reminding yourself to go on.

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

From Daily OM...

When you make a leap of faith you can accomplish almost anything you set out to do.


Many people, in heeding the guidance of their souls, find themselves contemplating goals that seem outrageous or unattainable. In the mind’s eye, these individuals stand at the edge of a precipice and look out over the abyss at the fruit of their ambition. Some resist the urge to jump, paralyzed by the gap between their current circumstances and the life of their dreams. Others make a leap of faith into the unknown, unsure of what they will encounter but certain that they will gain more in their attempts than they would bowing to self-protective instincts. This leap can be exceedingly difficult for individuals with control issues because the act of embracing uncertainty requires them to trust that surrender will net them the rewards they seek. Yet when you make a leap of faith, believing without a doubt that you will land safely on the other side, you can accomplish almost anything you set out to do.

There have no doubt been times in your life when you chose to go where the universal flow took you. Yet you may encounter instances in which your objectives require you to step outside of the boundaries of your established comfort zone so that you may freely and actively jettison yourself into a new phase of your life. While you may fear what seems to be the inevitable fall, consider that in all likelihood you will find yourself flying. A successful leap of faith requires your attention, as it is the quiet and often indistinct voice of your inner self that will point you toward your ultimate destination. Understand that the leap across the chasm of ambiguity may challenge you in unforeseen ways but you will make it across if you trust yourself.

If your mind and heart resist, you can dampen this resistance by building a bridge of knowledge. The more you know about the leap you are poised to take, the smaller the gap between “here” and “there” will appear to be. Your courageous leap of faith can lead you into uncharted territory, enabling you to build a new, more adventurous life. Though you may anticipate that fear will be your guide on your journey across the abyss, you will likely discover that exhilaration is your constant companion.