Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Thinking of Roethke

The Waking

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me, so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

How to let go

For a long time, I wanted to fly trapeze. After a year of chatter, the Pumba girl counselors finally trapezed at I FLY on Long Island. Needless to say it was fantastic and frightening- a fantightening if you will.

As a kid, I never believed that I had the superpowers to fly. Instead I wanted to be unique, to have something about myself that made me feel as if I could brave the world, even separate from the world, because I was special.
But it's true that if you really want something to believe in, you have to let it out of you. It will go. Though at first, I was grasping the bars so tight my hands were red and achy, I was airborne.

How to find "The Traveler's Prayer"

"May it be Your will, Eternal One, our God and the God of our ancestors,
that You lead us toward peace, emplace our footsteps towards peace,
guide us toward peace, and make us reach our desired destination for life, gladness, and peace.

May You rescue us from the hand of every foe, ambush, bandits and wild animals along the way,
and from all manner of punishments that assemble to come to Earth. May You send blessing in
our every handiwork, and grant us peace, kindness, and mercy in your eyes and in the eyes of all
who see us. May You hear the sound of our supplication, because You are the God who hears
prayer and supplications. Blessed are You, Eternal One, who hears prayer."

On a laminated square, I carried this transliterated prayer in the left side of my bra sleeve, through three days of an outdoor festival and several thousand feet in the air.
There's something about these words I just am happy to have had it with me; To know that I have a tangible peace of a belief.

Another version:
"May it be Your will, Lord, My God and God of my ancestors, to lead me, to direct my steps, and to support me in peace. Lead me in life, tranquil and serene, until I arrive at where I am going. Deliver me from every enemy, ambush and hurt that I might encounter on the way and from all afflictions that visit and trouble the world. Bless the work of my hands. Let me receive divine grace and those loving acts of kindness and mercy in Your eyes and in the eyes of all those I encounter. Listen to the voice of my appeal, for you are a God who responds to prayerful supplication. Praised are you, Lord, who responds to prayer."

Enjoy your journey, wherever it takes you...

How to celebrate a ""

happy tuesday!:) it's only begun!

I like to celebrate the little things. A day takes us farther than we think.
If you "happy Tuesday", you believe this day can be something more than a collection of your things.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

How to only apologize for what you can be sorry for

don't apologize for things you can't control
she once said into me
through the phone
and i believed her as i held the words
pressed between my fingers

Monday, August 2, 2010

You can do it

When I was a kid, I never knew the meaning of this word. But as I developed into an ambitious pre-teen I was faced with the ambivalence of having fun and having it done. Would I be able to have both? Yes, yes you can say it was the age old have your cake and eat it too. In middle school, I was introduced to words and phrases such as "mandatory", "rude awakening" and "standardized". There in the very small quarters of my middle school, I realized that I had to crack down.
Reassured that everything would work out I still worried about the homework assignments and tests I now smile over.
It was not til high school and later in college that I believed in these words. Everything will work out. You have to trust yourself which is the biggest lesson of follow through. You must believe that what you put your mind to will essentially follow you.
This isn't an easy thing but with a laugh, I have and continue to find my way.

Here is a funny skit Ellen DeGeneres made while on a stand up tour

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Flour Child

Ulysses and I make flour beads.
I had been meaning to try this "how to" for sometime and spending a rainy afternoon with my baby cousin seemed like the perfect opportunity. I recommend however trying a messy project like this one with someone who is over 4 years old and more willing to help with clean up or "bear with me" through the mixing process . One thing I learned was that children are not afraid in the name of having fun. Afraid to literally and figuratively dig right in even if you are unsure this mess will work out.We had a great time and made bagel shape beads/toys for his breakfast and tool shaped flour toys in honor of the wonderful Bob the Builder.

When using this recipe try the paste may feel a little sticky. Try rubbing flour on your hands and setting aside a clear workspace. Also the more water you use the stickier the dough.